The Faux Pas Press #26
A Weekly Thought
By Jason Fresh
30 March 2010
Why I Can Quit!
Listen. I would like to exploit your sensibilities if I may – it’s for your own good. Don’t think for a second that I would take, take, take without giving something back. I love writing this weekly piece, calling it a weekly piece, even though it may actually be a few frills that I throw together at a moment’s happy liking. I think this is my contribution. Sad? Maybe. Truthful? I fucking bathe in the truth.
I recently decided, as I am certain many a reader of the Faux Pas Press has at one time considered, to quit smoking and drinking. This is, against my better judgment, a necessary step in the process of enlightenment.
But addictions are so damn healthy. I have learned that no matter how often I quit (which has turned out to be pretty regular), I pick up the same or similar habits soon after. I stop drinking Red Bull/Vodkas and change over to a 12 pack of Diet Pepsi. I quit one thing to fill it with another. Perhaps, this is why many pious Americans fall prey to obesity. After a week going to church-sponsored activities, fat Americans resolve themselves to live a life free on harmful substances like Marijuana. They quit drinking alcohol to gain blessings and favor with God but find a void that must be filled with Papa Johns (a food enjoyed by consumers of pot).
What I have decided is this: I am just going to do what I like doing. Sound crazy? Yes, perhaps. My daughter, Lola, is 5 months old now and she understands me. She does exactly what she likes doing too. If she wants to shit her pants then she just does it. She doesn’t feel guilty about it. If she want to leave a puddle of regurgitated breast milk on my hairy chest then she just does it. She does expect any recoil. “Except a man become as a little child, he can not enter the Kingdom of God.”
So, the weakness that man feels is his greatest strength. Every feeling of worthlessness is wasted emotion. It is not our job to make things right in the world – it our job to live a purpose, a purpose free of guilt and confinement. The artist does not criticize his own work. He does what he wants. I can quit. I will quit. I will quit monitoring addictions – I will be addicted to whatever I choose – and live with the result.
Green Lights,
Jason Fresh
www.fauxpaspress.com
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If I could live 1 f--king day without any addictions that would be a great day. This world can be EXTREMELY difficult. Red Bull and Vodka sounds powerful man. Mine is 2 5-hour energies per day, plus a few other minor addictions (not going there). But we hack at this f--king world one day at a time. The trick is to not let the addictions get out of control. Kick their a-s, and not the otherway around. One f--king day at a time man. Love your site. Don't give a sh-t if anyone else does. Hopli
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