The Faux Pas Press #153
Superstar Sins
By Chambo Fresh
Brought out of the abyss, from the doldrums of yesterday, the Fool often makes glimmer what is not really gold. We lure attention, court it, and then forget it. From the Massa Confusa, pain turns to nightmares into dreams; our sweat churns ideas and the like. And we are free to disseminate. Consciousness in the observer makes for a conscious observation though. And separates what is inaccurate with what is eternally true.
Some of us, new on the Journey of Infinite Returns, could not resist telling anyone who would listen just how messed up our thinking had been, just how "bad" shit had gotten for us and our loved ones. (Guilt streaming like Wi-Fi downlink at Gigabytes/second). Just as often, we totally exaggerated even modest accomplishment. (Pride ejaculating like a 19th-Century oil strike.) We exaggerated our accomplishments and we exaggerated our guilt.
Confessing our wrongs, as we understand them, is necessary. But is it necessary to race about "confessing all"? Can you consider the widespread exposure of your many oh-so-interesting superstar sins as a true form of humility? It is not a great spiritual asset. Only as we grow in the Journey of the Self do we realize that our theatrics and our storytelling are just forms of exhibitionism that fulfill the same needs as sins themselves, our light waving, our strutting and cutting down of others. And with this retrospect, can we find the divine, stellar form of humility. Realizing once and for all that, maybe, just maybe.....we are not so important after all.
May I learn, once and for all, that there is a gaping hole between the plateaus of real humility and our dramatized self put-downs? Confrontation has to occur sometimes when we seek center-stage to out-do or out-cool the next ego still in suffering. When do I have to share my adventure stories, starry-eyed listeners oh-so impressed with my recovery? "Yes. I've gone to the abyss, my friends. I really have." My account of addictive misdeeds does not have to take on the epic grandeur of heroic, Homeric exploits.
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