A Weekly Thought
By JASON SCOTT CHAMBERS
18 JULY 2009
THE WANTON THOUGHT
This week was not so much a period of time as it was the greatest damned gift of this century and every other century for that matter, a sign maybe. I mean, every day, every week is a gift, but this week fucked with me. And this weekly thought is the result much internal debate and maybe some prodding by God. I don’t really know what the result will be. I just want to send good.
Here is a lesson I learned this week. It can be summed up very simply: Sometimes not getting what you think you want is really getting what you want. Cliché? Sophomoric? I don’t give a fuck. Well, I really do, but bear with me as I assert my ego.
Let me qualify. It is not always necessary to define experiences in positive or negative connotations. I further assert that that there are both positive and negative energies in the Übersphere (a word I created in the wake of Brüno, amazing humor by a genius). Both are infinite, can never be created or destroyed, they are recycled strife, and will find a place to rent in you if there is a vacancy.
I have spent much well-intentioned effort imagining the experiences that I desire, a practice I am well to do. This is a practice that all are well to do. I have imagined every potential future, what could be and what could have been. I have also imagined up disappointment for roads not taken or opportunities missed – not going to acting school, not finishing my first movie script Why I like Black Women, not going to law school so I could buy a fancy car and finally matter, or fouling up my first marriage. Some of these images are what, at one point, I thought that I wanted or I thought would make me happy. I didn’t get these things, or at least, didn’t get them in the way I thought I should.
But here is what I’ve learned, and this week helped me to see. I really want, and I believe we all really want, peace, abundance, health, and wealth. We want the opportunity to matter and share the best of ourselves with others. I learned that unachieved goals help me gain a clearer picture of what happiness means. What does it profit a man to gain the whole world and loose his soul (or something like that)?
I purchased a book recently that has assisted me in clearly seeing my success. It is what has inspired me to begin this weekly thought and is called The Seven Laws of Spiritual Success by Deepak Chopra. It thought me that life is not a horse and pony show but a real presence. We are part of everything.
I am just simply trying do what I feel will make the most difference for the most people. I am simple. I write, I do my job as a linguist, I train for distance races, and I love my wife and daughter. I fuck up a lot, but I think I’m getting it. Sometimes not getting what you think you want is really getting what you want.
Green Lights and Galactic Pulsars of Good,
Jason Scott Chambers
OAHU, HI
P.S. I have included a story called Leroy’s Balls. I hope you laugh your balls off. Please send your thoughts if you feel so inclined. Also, I am asking for positive thoughts and prayers for Elizabeth and Lola Isabella Chambers who is due on October 28th 2009. One more thing, I need your positive energy for JACKMORMON: 69 meditations on being a Mormon and trying your damnedest to be a Latter-day Saint – need to find an agent for it. It is also available for anyone who wants to read the newest draft. Feedback is always encouraged. Thank You.
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